Against the Grain: First Days and the Feeling of Potential
Today I am officially a PhD student. My first class- a theory and methods of religious studies course- ended just an hour or two ago and I’m all aglow with the singular pleasure of the academic pursuit. The fall weather and the joy of new knowledge are the perfect couple. In each there is a feeling of overwhelming potential and together they make me feel that happiness that shakes your hands. I love that school starts here just as the leaves are beginning to turn. The ivy burns orange outside the gothic windows of this building that so inspires me and I feel like what I learn here might take me anywhere. That is perhaps the best feeling in the world, even if where I go is only out into the crisp, damp air and grey light that makes me so love this city.
This outfit came together relatively quickly and was the perfect companion to this day of critical inquiry and 2nd graderish excitement. The dress itself is a bit camp counselor-y, but by combining it with the tights and short boots I think I gave it a bit of an unexpected edge. The scarf was for warmth (I didn’t want to wear a jacket, so every little accessory helps), but in the end I liked how it gave me a slight Amelia Earhart quality. Best of all, it made me feel special, in the same way that today is special. I felt singular, unassimilated, against the grain (Benjamin-style). What do you all think?
My friend Sean and I took these shots were taken against an abandoned building in my neighborhood. Even it seemed to be participating in my “everything is exciting and full of potential on this day” feeling. Its crumbling facade and fading graffiti seemed to speak of wisdom and the possibility of diverse forms of beauty. Also, haunted-looking old churches are just bloody cool. Right?
PS- I got my hairs cut. At long last I decided to return to the blunt bangs of my high school days. Any thoughts?